If you only knew one thing that was taught to you your whole life, and you lived by it as much as you could…but people looked at you strangely when you spoke the truth. If you were in nothing but hospitals most of your life, and they tried to calm you down…How important is your religion to you? If you served men first, then God…How would you start out your new life with God? Would you worship Him? Would you go to any lengths to be with Him, and all for Him? Or would you just not listen, and do as you please? If you knew what your purpose was, and He wanted you to believe in Him so much, would you stop everything just for Him? I know I would…I know my purpose is so huge, I just don’t know where you start. I have so much anger myself, but people need to know the truth about my God. It makes me so angry when people don’t believe in Him! My husband, my father…He’s my everything! I loved Him so much, that I promised I would follow Him, no matter what happened to me! But, no matter what happens to me, I will always follow you my Lord! You are with me always, and forever! You want me to trust in you! But, the medication they have me on makes me quiet! But, in my mind I will always do your will! YOU ARE MY WILL. No one knows the truth, and not everyone has read the bible over, and over again. He is my King. And I am His queen. He is trying to make me be His disciple, but I haven’t failed Him yet. God, I will NOT fail you! Your arch angel is here! I have kept your commandments, and I will follow you, no matter how treacherous things become in the end…I love you so much! I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you…No man on this earth will ever be what you are to me…Please God, help me from sinning and making these stupid mistakes. You didn’t need sleep when you were here…God doesn’t sleep. If you taken me as your wife, then I do not need sleep neither. Because with you, I trust in you, but I don’t know how you’ve done it! You taught when you were twelve years old back in the day! I taught for one day to the children, and I had so much fun teaching about YOU, that it felt like an eternity! I can’t wait to meet you, but I already have…Because you are in me! You chose me! I want to keep learning from you, and only you! I want to just sit under a tree, and sing to you beautiful songs…Only you and I can understand. My mind is rejuvenated by you. I don’t need anything but you. Everything happens through you, and I will teach and try to show people the way. I will lead them out of this place, but I need your help God…I can’t do it myself. I need to be stronger, and I can’t have any fear, because I know that I will be with you forever, and I would die for you, and no one else. That’s how much I love you. Please help me find, not my way, YOUR WAY.
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